Clairewhispers

Independence

I found people gradually become dependent on their the others as the relationship goes steady, because you share emotion, life and everything, and you spend time together. Then we begin to expect our partners to play the companion role well. We gradually get used to the life style of having a good mate to share our stories and life. I guess that's why break-up is always heartbreaking. It makes people lonely and makes it difficult to get the life back on track, because you'll need to reform a new life style, but only by yourself. And that's harsh enough!

I'm conscious that I should be reasonable to let my boyfriend own his privacy and time for his leisure, social activities and whatsoever. I often wonder to what extent should we 'free' them and it is still viewed as reasonable and acceptable.

My boy is going to take GMAT exam in a few days. He's quite intensed about it with high expectation from his family. So I promised not to bother his life and interrupt his study plan during this week, and I did! I arrange my days with lots of catch-up with old friends, work and other chores. Out of surprise, I found myself much enjoying in my 'new independent life,' which is very carefree and comfortable, though sometimes I still miss him a lot. Then that triggers my thought that human beings are controdictionary animals. We become eager for companion when we are alone, and we start to complain losing freedom when we have our boyfriends/girlfriends. I guess people never get satisfied and life always seem a bit less than perfect. But that's how it works in reality. We come to learn many things -- negotiation, compromising, and sharing. And that makes life worthy!

posted by Claire @ 1:58 AM