Clairewhispers

evaluation

I've been receiving lots of heartwarming reply or e-mail from friends lately for they saw my post about the argument with my family days ago. For those people who provided me with great support and comfort, I would like to express my appreciation and thanks to you.

I guess family affairs always bother people a lot on their way of growing up, especially for the people who was brought up in a conventional Asian family but also received the liberal Western education and value. It's just not the balance we need to take care of between family and self, but the conflict we need to solve between two different values. I appreciate that the two values from different culture taught me the greatest balance and combination of philosophy while conducting things. I appreciate more that I have a great family which is not so conventional but more liberal compared to other one.

I've been doubting myself for a while no matter in the working ability or my future goal. It's like a 360 degree self-evaluation. I felt frustrated by discovering myself a bad person no matter concerning to friends, family, work or boyfriend. I found I'm so selfish and self-centered. I always think about me rather than others. And I became so emotional once things didnt go in my way. I guess that was the major part that depressed me a lot. I used to push myself foward into the "sort-of-perfect" person in my life with a high standard, and the self-discovery just carries the conflict to my expectation on myself. I know that would be tiring if I'm going to carry that atitude in life. So I'm learning to be more optimistic and to be an easy person. I know it's difficult, and it takes time. But I'm trying hard.

posted by Claire @ 2:56 AM